Candles, scents and feeling chillaxed.

I have noticed it has been months and months since I last posted anything. Things have been hectic and I'm taking online classes so, by the time I'm done with my studies I really don't feel like puting more time into the computer. The lastest news with us is Willie got his new job. He starts school in Maryland in 2 weeks. He will be gone for 2 months. Then he is going to school in Arizona for 1 1/2 months. We don't know where he is going after that. I hope we find out soon after he starts school. I am planning on moving to utah in december sometime. I will probably try to move by christmas. I've been a little worried about how I'm going to manage this move financially and physically. I've done a huge clean out of my house and garage, so basically what's left is what we're going to keep. Although I will probably have to get rid of alot more of the bigger stuff since Im not able to get my own place straight away. I think it will all work out but Im still worried.

I have scented candles burning right now and the kids are asleep so Im sitting hear in peace with lovely scents around me ;).

I'm tired so I'm going to bed.
Melisa

Peace in my heart.

I have had a challenging summer so far. This is the first time we have. all of our children living under the same roof. We have definitely had our ups and downs. It had gotten pretty tough where I had thrown in the towel. Then just this past week I had a big urge to start reading books again. I decided I needed to read an LDS novel. I went to Walmart and looked in their LDS section. I found a book. I started reading it. It only took my a couple of days to finish it and I was hungry for more. I finished the book Saturday night. On Sunday I went to church with two of my kids. They were really well behaved and I was grateful for that. During church I felt the spirit really strong. When I got home my wonderful hubby had dinner on the stove and he had cleaned the kitchen and dining room. I love that. It just puts me in a really good mood when Willie does things like that. I had decided to read my patriachal blessing. It had been quite some time since I had done that. What a comfort that was. The main feeling I had by the end of the week was, as long as I am faithful I will be ok. I got an incredible peaceful feeling in my heart about all the issues I have been dealing with this summer. I am so excited and thankful for that because I have hope again. I was really in the dark and feeling pretty low, now I feel I am in the light. I have new exciting goals that I will strive to accomplish within the next year or two. These goals will move my life in the direction I need to go to be happy. I know these goals will bless and guide my little family towards the lord. I know if I am faithful and trive to be an example my little family will follow.

Double Trouble.

Willie and I have a total of four children. He has two boys from a previous marriage and I have one boy from a previous relationship, then we have our daughter together. This summer is the first time we have all four children together. We have already come across several obstacles in trying to adjust from only having two children to managing four children. On top of that Willie is still having to pay child support for the two months we have the boys. This is very difficult because all the boys are basically the same age (6-7 years old) and they all eat alot of food. Willie's ex has told us she would send us about half of the child support which would be great however the month is almost over and we haven't heard anything from her since the first week the boys were here. (They have been here three weeks.) So this has been very frustrating.
We are also having some disciplinary problems with the kids. I think the boys get what they want most of the time when they are with their mother. They don't follow rules very well and I'm having a really hard time with getting them to tell the truth. I have also gotten the response that if their mother was here they would be having a fun time but because she isn't they are having no fun. Our home's philosophy is when your chores, school work etc are done and you have been behaving yourself, that's when you get to have "fun" i.e. play the wii go to chucking chesse etc. They seem to have a sense of entitlement as if they should receive what they want because they want it. We are just trying to teach our children that you need to work to get things in life. Nothing is handed to you, you have to work.